After experiencing my first stateside winter in nearly a decade I find myself mesmerized by spring. It is the ultimate exhale. The dramatic emergence of colors and smells, in such stark contrast to the past months, shoves the reminder of LIFE right in your face. I can’t stop recording it. I don’t want to forget what this feels like. #livinglovinggrowing

 

What’s that they say? No mud, no lotus? Well, this is actually a water lily (I just learned the difference with the assistance of my pal Google). Nonetheless, I like the message. It was on my mind because yesterday got a little muddy. I strive to stay positive, to focus on joy and hope and silver linings. But let’s be honest, some days that goes better than others. And it has to be okay when it’s not pretty. Clarity grows in that mud too. There is a further defining of what we want and who we desire to be in those moments when frustration, anxiety, anger, or sadness creep up on us. Learning moments. Defining moments. Opportunities to grow. Knowing that helps me to move through it and then attempt to let it go. I am slowly getting better at offering myself the grace that I would extend to others. If I am going to spread kindness I have to start with myself. So, here’s to getting a little dirty. #livinglovinggrowing

 

 

I love a new year – it always seems full of potential and the idea that anything can happen! However, the first days of 2018 are feeling slightly less stand out than I expected. It is not because they hold less excitement – quite the opposite, actually. The thing is, I spent the last few months of 2017 committed to seeing each morning as brand new, a fresh start. It was the only way that I knew how to find hope in the aftermath of the storms that had altered my life immeasurably. As a result, the feeling that usually comes for me on January 1st had already become my daily ritual.

On September 6th, I sat in my closet on St. John while the strongest Atlantic based hurricane in history raged around me and shifted absolutely everything in a way that one cannot really imagine until it happens. Just a few weeks later my year and a half relationship ended in a deafening silence and all I could think was, “Well, when your whole life gets completely upended at once you are left with nothing but possibility.” I knew that I had to choose a perspective that would not leave me paralyzed. I could not focus on what I had lost or I would never get out of bed again. I had to focus on what I did have and all the potential that lay before me. Continue reading “NOTHING BUT POSSIBILITY”