Fear Is A Funny Thing

I am technologically challenged. This will come as no surprise to those who know me well. I don’t own a smart phone. Cords, wires, and their corresponding components make me nervous. I don’t understand Twitter or hashtags. Just a few months ago, my boyfriend showed me how to use Bluetooth on my phone, after I assured him that it was not an available option (having absolutely no idea what it was in the first place. Honestly, I thought it was an ear piece).

It is not that I am ideologically opposed to technology (for the most part), I simply find the process of learning how to use these enhancements tedious, mind numbing, and ultimately exhausting.  I am, however, also the first to admit that I usually end up loving the very thing that initially fostered feelings of contempt and loathing. Waking up to freshly brewed coffee in the morning is worth every minute dedicated to the internet search for nearly incomprehensible programming instructions.

All that being said, the time has finally arrived…I have created a blog/website. For longer than I would like to admit, I have been telling people that this project’s completion was just around the corner; in truth, I was completely intimidated by the idea of even starting. Thankfully, as is usually the case in my life, passion and inspiration trumped fear. My desire to share my music and musings with others was the push that I needed to put one foot in front of the other. Baby steps; it’s all about baby steps.

Fear is a funny thing; it can pop up in the subtlest of places. I do not think of myself as one whose life is limited by timid thinking. I purchased a one-way ticket to an island that I had never seen; yet, I avoided some major steps in pursuing my dreams as a writer, photographer, and performer because I was afraid to go toe-to-toe with website templates. I can’t help but believe that it is realizations like this that open doors to learning. They remind us to stay humble – it is easier to focus on our larger achievements and shove the smaller hindrances into the shadows – however, it is only by exposing all of ourselves to the light that we can genuinely grow. It is also a reminder that small steps still produce forward momentum and that is all it takes to get the ball rolling. Before we know it, we are exploding forth into a beautifully and lovingly created reality.