More often than not, I have been blessed by the presence of kind and caring people. There was no lack of love in my life, but there was often a shortage of the sun’s rays. One day, while living in Virginia and looking out at the mountains along a gray skyline, I decided that I was going to paint my bedroom bright yellow.
As I stood in Benjamin Moore & Co., flipping thru the vast assortment of paint chips, the sales associate approached me and said, “When you select a color it is usually a good idea to go two shades darker than your original choice.” That made perfect sense to me. So, I followed her advice and settled on “Banana Yellow,” which was really more of a sunflower yellow, in my opinion.
When I got to the counter she asked what room I would be painting. When I explained that it was for my bedroom, she stopped and assured me, “You do not want to paint your room this color.”
“Oh, yes, I do.”
“I don’t think that you understand; it will feel like you need sunglasses all the time.”
“Yep.” I smiled as I imagined just how fabulous that was going to feel.
“No, it’s going to seem like the lights are always on.”
And then I was forced to interrupt, “I want it to feel like I am standing in a field of sunflowers on the brightest, sunniest day that ever existed in all of time.”
She raised her eyebrows and laughed, “Oh, well, then I guess you have picked the right color.”
I absolutely had.
Shortly thereafter, I moved to the Caribbean.
Interestingly enough, in my lifetime, I have only painted my bedroom walls twice. In my childhood home, I painted a mural of a tropical underwater scene – it is still there. I suppose that we always, instinctively, know where we are truly meant to be.
photo location: St. John, US Virgin Islands (May 2012)
For ten years, this poem has been captivating my sensibilities. It comes to mind each time that I witness a breathtaking sunset, an act of great kindness, or an exchange of unconditional love. In moments of conflict, it arises, pleading with me to remember that it is more important to be loving than to be right. It is this love that I am striving for. It is this love that creates unspeakable beauty.
photo location: St. John, US Virgin Islands (June 2014)
Music is magic. It can transform anything into something beautiful. I am fairly certain that, given the right composition, we could realign every star in the sky. At the very least, I know with absolute certainty that it makes me the best version of myself.
photo includes artwork by Anahata Joy Katkin “Love Who You Are”